I ordinarily only post about things I have made, but today I have to share something personal.
I may have mentioned that I have rheumatoid arthritis. Two years ago this month I was diagnosed with RA. I have to admit it was a scary thing to hear. I did go through a mourning period but I have tried and tried to not let it stop me from doing what I love to do. (take care of my grandchildren, spend time with my family and friends, participate in church activities and sew)
It has been a challenge but I keep going. I have tried (I think) all of the meds out there. Painful shots, infusions and lots of pills. The med I am on now, Enbrel, is helping a lot. Still have very swollen hands and fingers and pain here and there. I miss the life I had before. The predinsone (steroid) helped put 45 pounds on me. I am now somewhat in control and have managed to loose 24 of them. I have to keep going because I know that the extra weight is not good for my knees and feet.
For some reason, this morning I feel so sad and disappointed in my self for letting it get to me.
I have a wonderful family and a lot of caring friends but I feel so alone. I do not want to be a burden on anyone. I try to do everything for myself. I hate it when I get like this.
Sorry I am so pitiful today. I have to shake this off quick!
I am working on a couple of projects in my sewing room so I guess I should go to my sewing (therapy) room and get started.
thanks for listening.......I will try not to write like this again.